Tuesday, July 14, 2009 10:13 PM
I'm frustrated, sad, anxious. Whatever emotions are all mixed. I'm impatiently waiting for his mum to call me. I have no idea what happened to him and is not even there for him at times like this.
I feel so useless suddenly.
His mum just called me saying he went through the CXR, blood test etc. 2 hour till the result is out. I feel so restless. I dont want anything to happen to him. I never want anything to happen to him and how much I hate myself, I can never get myself to cool down, I can never get myself to assure him. All I could do is cry and cry. Let's hope nothing major happen to my love. I hope.