Friday, January 2, 2009 9:43 AM
Aha- It's Back To School~
Stayed at home the whole of yesterday.After watching my favourite little nyonya i tried sleeping cause i need to wake up as early as 5 am. No matter how much i tried sleeping, my eyes just refuse to shut. Yes I slept late and surprisingly I woke up earlier than the expected time. Must be the drive of 1st day i guess. For the free period now, I'm feeling very sleepy. Dreadful for the school period now. No no I must appreciate my free time for now cause god knows how exhausting it could be the moment that free period is gone.
Recalling the past,
Visited their dad and the four of us proceed with our search for pizaa hut. In the midst of searching,I visited my passionate coffee master lovelies, it's been a while. The atmosphere is still the same. I missed them and those coffees I used to brew. *Ouh how time flies*.
and so we continued our journey, for once I thought we are watching fireworks via wheels. Gave up, we had our dinner at newton and watched the fireworks at marina, the area was enclosed with construction sites and the gagaks whistling vigorously. I suddenly felt like I'm immersed in some kind of darkness,the ticklish patches of grasses that I stood doesnt make me feel like I'm standing on my own city! Must be the results of many gagaks i guess. The fireworks didnt arouse me. I wasnt jumping with joy like how others would, screaming on top of their lungs and wailed as each glittering waves of fireworks erupted.As I watched, sadness drilled in. Reflecting back 2008's memories. Nothing was great, I achieved nothing, unexpected overturns happened and I've changed,the flow had been broken. For once I felt like a loss child not knowing what to do, not knowing what I want. Things never goes in my way and to realise how much I've changed. I loss my sense of direction, faith, determination and will.It was the most terrible sorrow to my own realisation.
Each explosions depicts my shattered dreams,my shattered hopes, my shattered desire,my broken path.
I came to realise everything was gone, I cant bring it back to pieces. I never regret looking back at those fragments of life. These are ordeals that tells me to be patient and strong to face circumstances. No doubt I lose faith in myself, I still have faith with god. I still believe he knows what best for me and maybe this is part of life, part of growing up. Its 2009 now, and I'm embracing it with open arms. I have dreams and hopes in which I hope my dreams and hopes will come true. New year, new beginning, new chapter of life of me and you.;)
//back to school, back to heavy workload ;( hoho! time will past la no worries
