Monday, December 1, 2008 11:38 PM
No one could understand the agony that I’m facing no one. Even my love. I cant help but cry each time I think of him, my love. Been many times I feel like I’m a stranger to him. I didn know his friends, the way he relates me. Calls me fat, keep pointing up my flaws, talking about air stewardess,keep saying he wants to be alone and just he was sad as he miss his parents. I coax him not too cry instead he said “tak susahkan orang” then what am i. do I mean anything to you? I don’t feel owned by you, I don’t feel I’m part of you and we are together. I feel outcast when I’m with your family. I just feel like we are incompatible. You criticize whatever things I have; ip zone billabong; I was deeply hurt. I could have buy all I want but have you ever think.. all I did is for you. I force myself not to buy things so that I have money to spend with you. Have you ever think of that. NEVER, I know you used to have an easy life and now you are suffering, again this made me feel like I’m imposing him. I restrict his freedom and I’m a burden. I really feel like pulling away and give up I was deeply hurt hurt yet I love him so much. I gave it all up for him everything but I wonder if he loves me. I feel like I’m a stranger to you.
